i see the light - tangled OST

http://soundcloud.com/littlemisslea/i-see-the-light

we could be in love - my version :)

http://soundcloud.com/littlemisslea/we-could-be-in-love-my-version

sun and moon - my version

http://soundcloud.com/littlemisslea/sun-and-moon-my-version

terrified by kara dioguardi - my version

http://soundcloud.com/littlemisslea/terrified

i'm not that girl - wicked the musical

http://soundcloud.com/littlemisslea/im-not-that-girl-wicked

two words - by yours truly

http://soundcloud.com/littlemisslea/two-words

soundcloud clip #1 - someone else's story

for my first entry - a song from chess.

pardon the noise.. this is not professional recording. :)

http://soundcloud.com/littlemisslea/someone-elses-story-take-1

crazy about soundcloud

thank you danisa cayetano! though, we need a good mic and filter. :)

i will post as soon as the audio recordings are uploaded! ^-^

my first love

singing. and i miss it terribly.

late night thoughts

where do negative feelings come from, and how does one dissipate them?

what will the next 6 months bring?

what does it take to feel secure?

test - if my signature is already working

i love my new blog layout!

at the end of the day

Lord,

is this where you want me to be? is this what you want me to do?

everyday i ask the same question, wanting to be sure if i am making the right choice.

you know how much stress i have to endure everyday. though i am not complaining, i am beginning to feel my humanness because i feel weak and angered and discouraged at times.

i want to see the bigger picture but at the end of the day, i still choose to look through my own perspective.

i want to serve your purpose but at the end of the day, i still fail you.

at the end of the day, i am just an ordinary worker. serving my own purpose. working and working and complaining. never looking at the possible difference i could have made if i had just chosen to listen to you first.

dear Lord, now that a new chapter is coming, it is now upon me. everything is upon me.

but without your strength, i will fall. i will crumble. i will lose.

so it is not upon me, it is upon you.

for it is not by my power, nor by my strength.

but by your will and by your spirit.

and Lord, please don't forget - you promised that you will finish what you have started in me.

of rhett and scarlett

i love gone with the wind. i may sound old, but i truly enjoyed this film. in fact, i enjoyed it so much that i even ordered two books online: the original gone with the wind novel and rhett butler's people: the sequel to gwtw. but anyway, that will be for another blog entry.

truth be told, the story is really bitin. just when scarlett realized that she truly loves rhett, rhett finally gives up his love for scarlett. "frankly my dear, i don't give a damn", as his famous last line says.

but then again, scarlett answers "there must be some way to get him back... after all, tomorrow is another day".

and so the lingering question is, whatever happened to rhett and scarlett? was she successful in getting him back?

according to margaret mitchell, the author of the novel gwtw, she didn't know either. and as rhett puts it plainly, she "doesn't give a damn" as well (source unknown). but deep inside all of the die-hard gwtw fans' hearts, there is always that flickering hope that somehow, against the stubbornness of these two characters, they will have a happy ending - together.

however, some would say that scarlett had it coming and that in reality, people will grow tired of waiting for you to love them back, and "even the deathless love can die".

what a misfortune.

but what's nice about the story is that it leaves enough room for the viewers and readers to create their own ending. it ended in a manner that questions of "what-ifs" are triggered and heightened, hence keeping its mystique.

what a classic.

bakit hindi ako ngumingiti ngayong gabi

nalulungkot ako.

di dahil sa lilipat na kami ng bahay, pero dahil sa hindi ako sigurado kung tama ba ang desisyon namin na lumipat. nalulungkot ako dahil kahit paano, naging maginhawa ang aming mga araw sa mumunting sulok ng leongson.

mamimiss ko ang tapsilog at libreng sabaw sa pasola, ang panaderya sa magkabilang tabi ng aming bahay, ang lottohan, ang bangkaan (na siyang nagsasagip sa akin pag walang dyip), ang siomai ni tita kapampangan, ang champorado at pandesal ni paltok sa madaling araw - at oo, kahit na ang mga tricycle na nakakalat sa harap ng gate namin, mamimiss ko din.

mamimiss ko ang isang tumbling na layo ng bahay namin sa bahay ni jel. kapag gutom ako, saglit lang nandun na ako sa kanila. kapag namimiss ko siya, ta-tumbling lang ako, nandun na ko. ngayon - isang sakay ng dyip at 10 kandirit na bago ako makarating sa kanila.

pati na rin ang lapit ng bahay ko sa bahay ng mga magaganda kong kaibigan na sina dane at cheche, mamimiss ko din.

ngayon, ilang kahon na ang napupuno ko ng mga damit at kalat ko. masakit pa din ang katawan ko galing sa paglilinis ng bahay at pagpipintura ng kama na kabibili ko lang para gamitin. hindi pa rin ako tapos. ang dami ko pa gagawin.

hay. nahahassle ako.

affirmation

my life is not a bed of roses.
i think my closest friends can attest to it.

through the course of my existence ive been heavily bruised, scarred, beaten, defeated, depressed and at some point, crushed to the core. but through the miracle of God, through the love and support of my family and friends, and through my own determination, im still here -- alive and kicking.

'guess that's what makes me a better person in a lot of ways.

im not a pampered princess nor a cold stuck-up bitch.

im just me.

the girl who came from nowhere, the girl who dreamed of beautiful things and see them come true, the girl who is still on her journey towards finding who she is and what she wants to be.

and now, faced again with life's battles and challenges, i am feeling a little scared and worried.

am i still the same resilient girl i know?

HELL YEAH, YOU ARE!

you did not lose it, nor will ever lose it.

hang in there and kick some fat ass if you need to.

why i love hana yori dango

... because every girl believes in her happily ever after.

new look

this is something extreme: i cut my hair very short (no, not really me but Lauren of T&J). you see, ive never had my hair cut above shoulders for the last 12 years or so, so i was entirely shocked when the hairdresser cut about 5 inches of my precious hair... i almost cried. well anyway, here it is.

this is the before picture (i can't transfer the "before picture" above the other pictures. blech).

before

so there. so much for my weekend. i hope it's okay.

my thought for the day

life is indeed unfair. but at least i am better than you - in every inch. haha.

randoms 2/24/2011

- the philippines is still extremely blessed.

- if you find yourself unmotivated, uninspired, bored of the same daily routine.. think of those people who will not see the light of day anymore.

- if there's one thing i hate (aside from wet toilet seats), it's malicious people who will give dirty meaning to anything that you do, say and act. napakasabaw ng utak!

- choose your companions carefully.

- juliatos travel and tours is the best! thanks ms. tzeh and sir mark!

- soooper excited for bohol! can't wait!

- craving for tita judy's crispy pata. like drool-craving.

- i feel terribly insulted when i am treated like i don't know anything. c'mon, ive been working my ass off for the past 4000 years. give me some credit naman.

- i am not easily impressed by the title "director" or manager". i know you've worked hard for it but it doesn't give you the authority to undermine our capacity. you, first and foremost, should lead by example and not just impose your position to get what you want. you're just an employee afterall, like the rest of us. and you don't even know how to use "lose" and "loose" properly. omaygash.

- and for you, the great pretender, you're not that great. you're just all mouth. and your air is stronger than ondoy i can't stand it. gee. go somewhere else to whore around.


- do not tell me what to do. i will do it in my own time, own space, own way. go do your business on your own.

- we are not on the same level. puhleeze. sorry i have to be brutally honest.


Haaaay. it's soooo good to vent out.

random thoughts 2

- i am extremely sleepy now.
- for the first time in 6 months, i actually have nothing else to do! (or at least nothing urgent, hehe).
- i am very much excited for our naga adventure.
-traditional hilot beats swedish massage anytime.
- i miss having decent conversations with friends.
- i watched nacho libre 14 times since last week.
- i still want to pose as elise mckenna.
- i miss UP. big time.

sonnet 116

Let me not to the marriage of true minds
Admit impediments. Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove:
O no! it is an ever-fixéd mark
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wandering bark,
Whose Worth's unknown, although his height be taken.
Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle's compass come;
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
But bears it out even to the edge of doom:
If this be error and upon me proved,
I never writ, nor no man ever loved.

torn

i have been sleepless since saturday. and it's now wednesday.
why?
because i can't seem to decide whether to stay or to go.

there is an opportunity being offered to be. more pay, more work, more challenge. at this point in my life i should be taking on greater tasks and learning more complex things about my profession. i could have easily said yes, given that my current line of work is not, as you put it, as glamorous as i want it to be.

but somehow i can't seem to take it. there could have been a number of reasons why i should take it, but i can't seem to have 100% conviction.

oh. i'm having a terrible headache now.