at the end of the day

Lord,

is this where you want me to be? is this what you want me to do?

everyday i ask the same question, wanting to be sure if i am making the right choice.

you know how much stress i have to endure everyday. though i am not complaining, i am beginning to feel my humanness because i feel weak and angered and discouraged at times.

i want to see the bigger picture but at the end of the day, i still choose to look through my own perspective.

i want to serve your purpose but at the end of the day, i still fail you.

at the end of the day, i am just an ordinary worker. serving my own purpose. working and working and complaining. never looking at the possible difference i could have made if i had just chosen to listen to you first.

dear Lord, now that a new chapter is coming, it is now upon me. everything is upon me.

but without your strength, i will fall. i will crumble. i will lose.

so it is not upon me, it is upon you.

for it is not by my power, nor by my strength.

but by your will and by your spirit.

and Lord, please don't forget - you promised that you will finish what you have started in me.

of rhett and scarlett

i love gone with the wind. i may sound old, but i truly enjoyed this film. in fact, i enjoyed it so much that i even ordered two books online: the original gone with the wind novel and rhett butler's people: the sequel to gwtw. but anyway, that will be for another blog entry.

truth be told, the story is really bitin. just when scarlett realized that she truly loves rhett, rhett finally gives up his love for scarlett. "frankly my dear, i don't give a damn", as his famous last line says.

but then again, scarlett answers "there must be some way to get him back... after all, tomorrow is another day".

and so the lingering question is, whatever happened to rhett and scarlett? was she successful in getting him back?

according to margaret mitchell, the author of the novel gwtw, she didn't know either. and as rhett puts it plainly, she "doesn't give a damn" as well (source unknown). but deep inside all of the die-hard gwtw fans' hearts, there is always that flickering hope that somehow, against the stubbornness of these two characters, they will have a happy ending - together.

however, some would say that scarlett had it coming and that in reality, people will grow tired of waiting for you to love them back, and "even the deathless love can die".

what a misfortune.

but what's nice about the story is that it leaves enough room for the viewers and readers to create their own ending. it ended in a manner that questions of "what-ifs" are triggered and heightened, hence keeping its mystique.

what a classic.