torn

i have been sleepless since saturday. and it's now wednesday.
why?
because i can't seem to decide whether to stay or to go.

there is an opportunity being offered to be. more pay, more work, more challenge. at this point in my life i should be taking on greater tasks and learning more complex things about my profession. i could have easily said yes, given that my current line of work is not, as you put it, as glamorous as i want it to be.

but somehow i can't seem to take it. there could have been a number of reasons why i should take it, but i can't seem to have 100% conviction.

oh. i'm having a terrible headache now.