I just received the much-anticipated phone call from the Australian HR Director of the company I was applying in. Modesty aside, I was pretty confident with my application status: interviews and all exams are quite easy for me. So in my mind, the conversion might go something like this: 'Congratulations, we are extending you the job offer for the position of blah blah blah.."
Sounds nice, huh?
But no. It did not go that way.
She said that I might be more suitable for other position so they've accepted someone else. Oh well. Maybe because the work itself is going to be too admin type, and I am currently searching for a higher post. I said thank you and ended the call. I sounded fine, but at the back of my mind, I was thinking, "why not me?", and to think that I seem to be more competent than the other applicants. Yes. Angas UP na naman.
I got bitter for a while, but then I forced myself to think why it did not go as I expected. Then I thought, God is saying no.
Why is God saying no?
Maybe because it's not for me.
But why?
Because I got too confident and I forgot to ask Him for guidance and discernment.
Uh-oh. Guilty mode.
Yes. I forgot to ask God. And I got too excited about the prospect of having a better career opportunity. It's a fault on my part, but on the other hand, I also thought that maybe God is saving me from possible stress and misery at work. Maybe I am veering away from my goal, which is to find a better career opportunity. Maybe I am showing distrust; that I am not relying in His promise that he will not leave me nor forsake me.
God is so good. And God is so wise. I may not see His plans for me right now but I know they are beautiful. But of course, I need to rely on Him more and rely on me less.
So now, I'm back with job hunting. Still got a few active applications left. I just hope I won't forget the lesson that I learned this day.
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